Did we just become best friends?

I've been blessed with many friends. Friends that have gotten me through some of the roughest patches of my life. I've also been blessed with many best friends throughout the years. That person you can always count on to be there, for what ever reason, through thick and thin. No real question of who you're going to hang out with, because you already know who's down. You're like 2 peas in a pod. Possibly 3, or 4, if you're lucky enough.

Despite how many friends I may have, I've always been a best friend sort of person. I just like knowing that of all your friends, there's that one or 2 people that'll always be down to hang, who knows who you really are, who helps you through your struggles, and so much more. There's just an awesome connection there, and though it may not be there forever, for the time being, it's pretty grand.

Lately, I've been feeling alone. Yes, one of the reasons is due to my being single. However, it's also because right now, I don't really feel like I have anyone that I can call a best friend. I have some good friends, don't get me wrong. They're pretty awesome. But I just miss the times where there was no worry of what I was going to do when I got of work, cause I was going to hang with my best friend. No questions asked.

Right now I'm just board with life. I don't feel like I have any real connections with anyone.

Sunday used to be my favorite day out of the week. There was church, then food, then we (our closely knit friend group, which is often better than having a best friend, because you have multiple people that hang out and take care of each other) would all hang out and do some fun activity, or maybe do nothing at all, but do it together. Today, after church, we ate food, then all dispersed and did our own thing. I took a nap. I took a nap on what used to be my favorite day of the week. Is this growing up, or is it just people moving on? Maybe both? Which ever it is, it's depressing.

I've always been one of those people who's valued friendship, especially with the closest/best of friends. I value friendship more than I do family, but that's another story. Literally, it's my first blog. I look back on all the best friends that I've had, and the closely knit friend groups, and i miss them. Even down to my high school and Jr. high friends. It's just crazy how everything works out. And I know God has a plan for me, but I still don't know what it is yet.

Either way.

It's times like these were I which I had that person to turn to, instead of having to jot my thoughts down for a small group of anonymous readers. But then again if I did, I wouldn't have the problem I have now, lol. Although, maybe I'm supposed to take this time to get my life more on track. I look around my room and down at my stomach, and moobs, and can't help but notice that I've been real lazy lately. I've started plotting out a weekly routine, so I can get back on my feet. I'm just really interested in seeing what this year is going to bring.